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- freedom - I would wait forever If you just asked Now I'm afraid Time has weighed I become a prisoner To what your actions display When you play this game I fear what I wish Won't be fulfilled When I  remain to miss What I felt when we kissed I stay still inside From not knowing We fall as fast as we rise  Knowing We could not stop From showing  In our eyes  We were meant to be I'm lost in the dark Searching for the pieces of my heart Which I'm only able to see The rare days I go a day without thinking  About you  The more I wait I'm afraid I'm losing the best of me The pain has change

- lust -  We can fall as fast as we rise If we put trust into lust We rise inside by smiling from the thought Of finding those eyes That make it feel real We fall on the outside When we start to deny the feel Because of past pain Prideful to not make the same mistake Only hardens to how easy It can feel It's tricky to remain safe From not getting hurt And to continue with what could be A safe dream If you must play dangerous And get caught in thought Than just trust in your heart

- sweet dreams-  No surprise I'm writing I like to used to love to Inside it set the pain free Now it chains me Changed me to abuse The reasons my poetry has meaning And is so deep I wrote to sleep Now it feels I write to cut Deeper than the nightmares To the doors I keep shut I am my own worse enemy When I stare Looking into the past Searching for my future on paper I can write to find the answers But I choose to abuse this pen With line after line of questions It starts with me Okay soI'm broken I once wrote I feel completely empty At the same time filled with hope It starts with me I gotta find me

- you never know - I hate being broken I hate the nightmares  That are created from the memories that can't be forgotten I'm scared that this depression  Is becoming a glare in my view When my heart thinks about you I know your rare You actually listen and try to decode The riddles my heart speaks in I'm scared that this depression I'm in Is keeping me caught  In thinking your the one My heart desperately wants I'm having trouble decoding my own thoughts It's only been 4-5 months But your eyes are haunting my dreams Inside I'm believing in everything it seems To be when were kissing It feels perfect I'm scar

- footprints- A lot of my strength is put into Ignoring the fact that I miss you I refused to write about you Knowing that open the hurt I've locked away deep inside If you only you knew the pain That goes into writing these words Maybe than you would've heard  My heart when you looked in my eyes For the most part I've kept you contained But today my defense broke down  From typing your name for my password Your smile was more then enough I broke down Inside  Bleeding crying outside fighting With everything not to cry I miss you I loved you I blame you for both I heard what  your lips wrote When every

To the eyes that read this poetry I'm sorry if it becomes confusing But my writing you have to read Behind the line to see the meaning It's the only way I'm able to decode The brief memories that enter my dreams So as I begin to unload this weight Bare with me as my heart screams My best friend my meant to be Who has been silent for what seems Like an eternity entered my dream Last night and woke me The instant we kissed We haven't spoke in months It's been so long that I forgot What's it's like to miss That gorgeous smile that continues to haunt Seeing you shocked me into the darkness I couldn't escape the want So I tried

What has happen to appreciation And the worth of our words Texting is looked at as communication No wonder why we feel hurt When our hearts aren't heard Your welcome For not ripping your heart out I know all your weaknesses  And all the pain you can't forget about I know the emptiness you feel Around the holidays When you try your hardest to conceal The tears you hide When you lose your way I know everything about you You trusted to let me inside I could break you with a few Words but I would never I loved you I will always and forever Thank you For loving me back You could kill me Worse then I could you I let you

This year is almost over It's been a rough year For my heart and mind It will take a year to recover The more I rewind The pain that stays in my memories Of my best friend becoming silent Who is also my meant to be Of my mother becoming distant I don't why it got to me finally  She's never been anything different Of the trust I gave to dee Which I haven't trusted another Since heather Who the instant we kissed Was the moment I became defenseless 200 out of 365 days I felt misery Felt prisoned to the questions That raced through my head Which eventually positioned me In front of the mirror questioning The worth of my

It's only with in my power  To bring change and stability  I need to stop sinking From thinking in my memory's misery To believe in character  It's okay to fear what hurt But it shouldn't burn Knowing only makes it worse Be careful what you wish for For with every fall  You become more immune to learning Make the pain educating For cries are manipulating inside With every memory viewed differently Try to look at them all And see them as one To rise as the preparation for I miss  Grows strongest in the eyes Only I can make my heart lonely By not looking into the light I can live a happy life My hea

Can't say I have the best of luck When coming to find Another's mind that understands What it feels like to shut and lock A past that can only last If it blinds you of tomorrow With that being said With her in my arms I feel whole In my heart I feel sound  About life turning around Instead of not being able to forget The way your voice sounds The pounding in my chest I try not to get caught in thought When I think about her To avoid hoping for the best To only discover torture But it's becoming harder to ignore The more I uncover  I'm not gonna lie  To myself just cause inside I was hurt from someone else&#

A line, or two Empty phrases or deeper meaning? A teacher and a blackboard And child and a crayon Me with my keyboard, my pen, my phone It's all just words Just write it, essay it, make a note Make the scratches have feeling As if they were on your skin Little notes, don't make you take notice Phrases so complicated they don't make sense When simplicity brings you right to the heart of it A line, or two Happiness in a word Notes on life, or love, or smiles Not Maths or English, sums and science Make it come from the heart not a classroom of regimented desks and standard black ball points heading towards exam papers. A fe

I wish to sleep and never wake up for all theres left is pain kindness just aint enough to keep me from going insane What more can I give to satisfy those who expect too much? all my life, ive lived a lie i break with every touch I shed tears like theres no tomorrow yet it comes either way No pain can compare to my sorrow self pity, you can say.... why do I hate all there is to life yet still find time to laugh? the pain of bearing all the strife the burden of life's wrath just leave me in the tainted dark so I may rot away the scars of past have left their mark and broken, ill forever stay To blame oneself for others pain

Fallen apart Piece by shattered piece. Voices stolen From those who can't hear me. Scars never heal They'll only ever fade. Memories aren't forgotten They're only hidden. Until one second,       one moment,       one leap, Changed two lives Forever. And always the held doubt That this could exist. One month passed and they shared a kiss. Five months and faith couldn't resist. Ten months and they were in. One year now and it was true, What was love for me, was now love for you.

Never say 'I love you' because it's not something I want to hear Never say it to me, don't whisper it in my ear. Please just tell me softly, that you're going to let go Because it will be less painful in the end and it's the thing I'll believe the most. Never say 'I love you', because I'll love you with my heart And I know that you can't mean it, when it's me you're talking about How much imperfection, can one person take? Before they see the hell I am, and steal their love away. So never say 'I love you' because it will kill me from inside And I know that I'm not strong enough, to feel that and survive

In the silence I'm surounded by priceless memories Memoreies that haunt me They wont set me free In the dark I lie awake Searching in my mind for you Delieverance Save me from all that I am Keep me away from the pain With your knife I pierce the demon in me Its so hard to let it go I draw upon you You lend me your strenght to face the light of Another day I seek a way to free myself Free myself from you I cant seem to let this light shine through You who sheltered me Taught me how to be strong Turn the pain to anger Thats what went wrong I"m tired of working for you You who took me away Showed me a world of pain

i see the battle before my eyes as i start to pray and cry i pray for safety and peace of mind but no it rages on i fear it might get to strong hurling at those fragile bonds i built so long ago i see the battle as it rages i see the hurt on those faces i can't help it can't you see that inside its still me i still love and i still hurt i'm not the moster that crawls in dirt i still hope and i still pray for the battle to go away the battle it's taken over i can't find my way out of the abyss that seems so loud i cried again so hungry for love but no one heard me from above as my sight starts to fade i

I'm sorry that I said the wrong thing All I wanted was to impress you How sad is that? To make myself that low What's worse is that I mean it I feel like we're two sides Of the same coin I'm sorry that I can't say what I need to I'm so alone when I'm with you I mean it I can never tell If you're being serious WHy can't we just be honest So I don't trip over my own feet Let's be truthful from now on I mean it When we talk, I sometimes forget How old you are, and that's a bit creepy for me You're too old for my tastes I mean it Can you please wipe That stupid grin off your face It's simply to beautiful please stop doi

Some things I always knew I'd miss I just never thought it would be this I Miss You And those little things you'd do The conversations late at night When all we needed was touch, not sight Though I find myself still reaching My hope for change it's only breaching We made a promise That you couldn't keep Now that it's over I still can't sleep I don't think I could replace you But I'm too afraid to try I'm just trying to resist this urge To give up, lay down and cry

When anguish invades me and I feel the need of your company as I do today, I call you with the desperate voice of my lonely heart that screams and drowns in its own cry, not finding you, knowing that eventhough you hear me you are too far to return my call because there is an inmense distance that separates us, and that space seems to enlarge with each passing day while our bond grows stronger, our love is more intense. And that hurts... My heart cries out for you... in moments of deep loneliness and sadness as I have today... I hope the echoes of my love will reach you, flying through the land that stands between you and m